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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

14Dec'10
12.37am

still waiting for the chance to get the 2nd limited edition pet society penguin.
haha.
i got one already but have to get another one.

buying this limited edition thing,
and making sure that me and dearie have one,
has become like a culture, a habit or an event that cant be missed.

cause last time when i was busy,
and he could play PS,
he would buy one for me(:

so i dun know.
maybe buying like this,
and owning the LIMITED EDITION thingy represents like.
US.
haha.

so anyways, while i have to reconnect dont know how many countless times on the browser,
im here to write down a post.

nobody to talk to already anyway.
hahaha.
so late already.

im actually very tired already haha.

my eyes are all blurry already :x
but oh well.
haha.

has lost appetite,
and lost a sense of purpose,
and the motivation to push me on each day.
for the past 4-5 days.

because dearie couldnt come out.
he's got this SIT test.
he had to stay in for the weekend.
and to top it off, he cant use the phone.
cause its outfield.

so yeah.
kinda spent my 4th mth alone.
i went out alone.
hahaha.

i dun mind,
esp i think i should be grateful that i actually still get to hear from dearie first thing in the day.
like for awhile.

instead of not hearing from him at all on our 4th mth.

right?

ive been acting a little funny for the past few days.
haha.

like extra hyper.
but my frown doesnt go away.

because i cant see you. ):
because we cant spend time together.
and its not gonna be only for a little while):

now i understand why relationships are harder to handle when guys go to NS.
because theres simply no time.
and for people who have weak confidence in themselves,
will have doubts of themselves.

you read my messages,
but when the inbox is full,
you delete all the messages.

do you remember alot of things that i told you?

i hate having a phone with LIMITED sms storage as well.
but i cant really bring myself to delete everything all at one shot all the time.

i told you so many things through smses,
do you really absorb and think about how i was thinking?
or you were just listening?
and most probably forget about it after awhile?

and they are never talked about again?

over time,
i will run out of things to talk about.
because everything i have to say ends in one sentence.

thanks for trying to assure me with the littlest time you have in army.
telling me you're fine even if i say the same things to you over and over again.
at least its better(:

its not your fault dearie.
its not like you want it, right?

its because of this external factor,
NS.
thats causing all these.

and maybe on my side,
im abit expecting that guys and girls should be about the same when it comes to missing each other and what they would do.

like for example,
if i miss you,
i really miss you like crazy.
like write it down somewhere.
want you to know.

but maybe for a guy,
missing is just inside you.
in your own thoughts.
and not EXAGGERATED.
haha like me.

so hai....
i dun know.

i just...
feeeel kinda upset and mooody.
):

it all comes down to one sentence:
i wish i have more time with you.

the exact sentence that i've been messaging you for the last few days.
haha.

YAY.
THE LIMITED EDITION BUY ALREADY!
WOOOOHOOOO.

bedtime(:

and its dreadful work tomorrow again ):
hai.
byebye.

sweet dreams to you. *heart*

Y8:25 AM