arh~!!!!!

was so frustrated just now. dad threw everything into the washing machine and puts on XL water level. OMG lahs. XL = ALOT of water. and mummy warned me to always only use M. wasted alot of natural resources - water! haiZ. he always do things we dont want him to do. and don't do what we want him to do. ARH!!!!!

he can't switch on the tv himself, he can't get water to drink himself, he can't make coffee himself. he can't get clothes he's gonna wear out! HELLO!! he is alive and kicking, why can't he do all these without asking me or my mum to do for him?!

and then just now when he was about to go out, he told me he has no money on him. so i told him to take from my room. cause we always get our allowance from my mummy. now that she is in malaysia, she left the money with me. HE RATHER GO HUNGRY FOR THE WHOLE DAY THAN WALK INTO MY ROOM TO GET THE FREAKING MONEY. argh!!!

woah, 2.35am. well at least i finised my BCOMM justification and progress reports. sounds tough by their names eh? acutally i just copy and paste from the samples and just replaced the information. it's not hard, but i waited for like 5 hrs before i finally settled down to do. haiZ. now it's time for bed! and head off to more tutorial qns tml. cries*

walau. i've just wasted another hour accomplishing NOTHING. damn. bye guys.

found this link on ting hui's blog. she's my sec sch classmate too. my crazy partner. hahahas.

Your Birthdate: November 13

You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking. However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone. Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.

went to school for PBL. but in the end we didn't do anything much. and went home. at least i finish my part FOR NOW. hahahas.

i really wonder. why am i so slow in doing everything? and i always drag till last minute then i wanna do. i seriously dont like this feeling. but.. i've always been like this!! i really prefer to do things slowly, but reality is fast. and i need to run. i cannot walk slowly. haiZ..

with mummy not around, daddy sounds more gentle and kept giving me phone calls. its always like this. just now he came home and tell me he went to drink. said he was sad. said he not fit to be my dad. all those. maybe he was drunk. i wonder what happened. but i am not a person who asks into it unless u tell me. so yah, i left it at that.

its one am and i've not done anything yet. goodness. its sunday tomorrow already. walau eh. damn frustrated with myself.

played sudoku in msn games with zhi mian just now. he's my sec sch classmate. only won him once. -.- and he just learnt how to play from me. he's such a mathematics guy lahs~~~ losing made my mood went all the way down. hahahas. not blaming him or anything, but isn't it like this? everyone doesn't like to lose~~ oh whatever.

can time please stop?!! i wanna have a timeout!!!! argh!

hey this is sad. i saw something at Jacinth's blog. ta05 got a class outing. ta06 didn't. i don't know why. but yah i feel sad.

today in INFA workshop, i shouted at meh meh. i'm sorry gengbee. i didn't mean it. it was that miss quah. she gave me that treatment again. hannah said she's like that to all her INFA reps. she didn't do it to hannah! she only said it to me. 'chew yan~ remember to ask them to present on monday okay?' with that tone and expressions. i really wonder if i'm just over-sensitive. but, thats the feeling she gave me.

and other than saying sorry to gengbee. i realise i should say sorry to alot of people out there whom i have ever offended. come to think of it, when school just started, i was such an ass. sorry gary, peggy, edmund and the whole group. and back in my early days, anyone who felt offended by me, sorry..

my mummy went to malaysia already. awww. she's gonna be there for like one week plus. gonna miss her. but there's another good point. i get to eat out. hehe. KFC, pasta mania, mcdonalds, pasar malam, campbell soup, maggi mee. hahahaas. lalallaas~

great~ i haven't do what i am supposed to do for my CIP PBL project. gonna start now. or i'll feel so guilty. i was actually sleeping when my group members discussed online for 1 hr 45 mins yesterday night.

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

hahaas. this is funny.

aww. didn't see either him or GY guy today. hahahas. but i did see someone else. actually i only noticed him yesterday. though we were in the same class for so many weeks. hahaas. he's not that handsome but i guess he's macho enough to be in the list. amanda agrees with me. ^^v

work is starting to pile up again. and i am not going to drift on leaving them undone like last term. it was suffocating to finish them last minute. so, i am going to CONCENTRATE on my work now. ^^

there was only CIP tutorial today. wooo COOL. but its like i went to school for nothing, since i don't pay any attention in CIP class. sorry miss lee. you're nice but the module you teach is just TOO boring.

this PBL thing is kinda tough. i have problems understanding it. maybe because i dont pay attention in class? hahaas. amanda and meh meh already got fed up with me. fed up with explaining again and again. i'm sorry.

mummy is going to penang without me tomorrow. and she'll be gone for like one week plus plus? that means schoolwork + housechores for me! X.X hahahas. i'm sure it's gonna be damn tiring for me. oh well~~ i am a good girl. lalallas~

gonna go do something about my school work and get prepared for INFA tomorrow. i don't want miss quah to give me that kinda tone and attitude again. EVER.

OH YAH. i forgot this most happy thing of my day.

i saw him in CO-OP this morning when i went in to get my Vita-Soy. hahahas. he was in green today. so handsome lahs. hahahas. but i think he didn't notice me. better that way. hahahas.

it's like handsome guys are appearing on alternative days. yesterday was GY guy before bstats tutorial and today is him. XD and it was him on monday. hehe. hot pink. faints*

but seriously. they're just handsome. i won't know how they're like unless i make friends. but i don't think i will ever have the chance. hahahas.

woah. it's wednesday. sort of my favourite day cause it's swimming day. hahahas. my IS S&W i took swimming. still couldn't do my breast-stroke nicely and now my freestyle is getting out of hand. hahahas. faint* well still, next week we will be doing length already. OMG. we have to go under the sun already. hahahas. i'm so afraid i'll drown. =P

i just took mervyn's quiz. hahahas. got 40 out of 200. hahahas. guess i don't know him well yet huh.. hahahas. by the way mervyn is my senior in NP chess club. hahahas.

i met up with some of my MSL friends. they're councillors like me. heard the investiture was great. too bad i missed it. hahaas. only hang around for a while. mummy called for me to go home and mop floor. -.- hahahas. in the end she mopped it before i came back. cause she send me for an errand. lalalalas~

i got a bad throat since yesterday night. though i must say the voice sounds sexier. hahahas. no lahs, kidding. it's just sad, i can't sing nicely with this rough voice. hahahas. in my shower i mean. and i got a blocked nose on top of that. damn. i think i'm gonna be sick. X.X

i wonder if i've got high blood pressure or something. i don't wanna die yet! i haven't become slim and beautiful yet! hahahas. it always seems like i am blinded by bright lights whenever i stand up after i sit down. paranoid* O.O

okay, gonna catch my sleep. and yay! there's no bstats lecture tomorrow! no need to wake so early. whahahahas. muacks.

everything is going to start afresh. i deleted all my previous posts. i am back with a new me. the chew yan in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. ^^v

OPL - our Bstats tutorial teacher made me so damn sad this morning. He made it so convincing that i was the only one who failed my Bstats OPEN BOOK common test. i was so upset over it for that 2 hrs. and in the end i confirmed, gurantee, chop chop i passed when he finally gave us back the test paper. i got 37 for my first Bstats common test. HAPPY* since i expected myself to fail. well, now is to concentrate on the 2nd common test on 9th July. why does it have to be Bstats?!

we had a new microecons tutorial teacher. she aren't that bad. but i still like Hana better. hehe. miss her 'hello kiddies.' and 'common test'. hahahas. amanda always remind me of her. she can mimic her voice so well! hahahas. rofl.

was so embarrassed in CIP lecture today. walked all around when she already started the lecture. there were supposed to be people behind me!!! but when i turn around, everyone's gone. and that row was only enough for all but me. X.X hahahas. luckily, a voice called out to me. or i would have spent a miserable 1 hr alone. and she was HANNAH. my SISTER!! hahahas. dont misunderstand. she's one of my FAMILY in NP. hahahas. we chit chat all the way. CIP lecture is always the easiest to pass time.

for the past 2 days school restarted, i am so HIGH. -.- not that it's not good. but to many.. it's abit overboard already. i don't know. i just get high by seeing my FAMILY. hahahas. and just laugh at everything. BIG and small. hahahas. faint*

SISTER showed me this mediacorp 'Hey! Gorgeous' website today. Ummm, shuai ge and mei nv in NP, if you see this! please go and nominate yourself! hahahas. I personally wanna nominate someone. but it's just so sad he doesn't seem to like me and we couldn't be friends. if he joins the competition, he's bound to win man!!!! hahahas. SISTER should know who i am referring to. hahahas. i don't wanna get sue by anyone so i am not gonna write his name down. hahahas.

heard my Msl councillor juniors are having their investiture tomorrow. all the best! i am so sorry i couldn't be there. i have lessons. it's just so sad. OPPOURTUNITY COST. hahahas. rofl.

okay bye.

your love gives me wings.

simple.
loving.
cheerful. (:

to wait for the day when i will give you everything in this world.