29Jan09
12:14am

hey yo!

im waiting for deardear to reach home.
hmmm.
poor thing.
:x


hehe.
anyways.

HAPPY 2ND MTH DEAR(:










all the mushy things i've wrote in the letter =P
yours to keep (:







hmmm.
today had a long long day.
one whole day of sch.

and maybe it felt long cause i had a NAP in canteen2.
after lunch with ryan and eliz.
lol!






den met deardear at evening time.(:
we walked around cwp!
hees.


actioncity got so many coool things luhs.
hahahas.
i tricked deardear into pulling the shock chewing gum. =P

and he got tricked!
hahahas.
that expression was so cute.
=P




and we went around walkinggggg~
hmmm.
minitoon.
more than words.
comics connection.
hehe.



yeah it was a while,
before he came to my house for dinner:D

we had dinner together!
x)

a simple thing,
but i think having dinner together at the table is really a very nice feeling(:







and den after a while of tv,
we sang karaoke!
=P

dear sang me alot of songs.

i still like zhuan shu tian shi best =P

hehe.





recorded down.
so when i wanna hear him sing,
can use hees.

=P







i finally understood the feeling of touched and shuddering,
when ppl sing to u.
looking into ur eyes.
=X








den deardear accompanied me on the karaoke till quite late..
awww.
den i sent him off to the bus-stop.
(:




he lie down on my shoulder and rub around,
like little boy like that.
hahahas.
so cute.







sooo yap(:
deardear reached home!
and luckily i was clever and on off my phone.
i knew it corked up.
-.-
sorrry dear(:



tml's another school day.
so im going off to bed :D


deardear gonna call me before i sleep.
hees.

muacks dear(:








byebye everyone! :D

27Jan09
9:29pm

okay ive been home for one wholeeee day.
lying on the bed.
doing my eaa,
surfing web,
and yes studying.

although at a very slow speed.
hees.


not really in the mood for studying.
but have to!
cause exams are coming.
T.T






well.
i saw this commercial on tv!

its disney on ice!!!
x)




well yeah,
every year also have.
but this year's theme is princess wishes!
omg~





pretty prettty.
so decided to come post a few pics show u guys:D

































OH.
MY.
GOD.





hahahas.
okay sorry uh.
im abit of a disney freak =P

have i ever told you my dream is to go all the disneylands on earth??
=P



hees.
oh and at the website i found these pics,
there's this Q&A part.


'What did Belle say to the Beast to turn him back into a prince?'

'I LOVE YOU.'
(:

that just showed how powerful that phrase is (:

hmmm.
and i was at facebook for the whole day.
saw this commercial of BOLT'S PLUSHIE!
omg.
cute.




and it reminds me of the movie.
hees.
watched it with deardear at vivo(:




show u the pic too!
=P






































cuteeeeeee right?
x)



i want !!
hahahhaas.

i want lumpy tooo.
T.T



lol.
nevermind me.
im abit crazy now.
LOL.

prob cause i was stuck at home whole day.
and the only things i felt happy was when:

i was on webcam with dear!
lol!

so cute.
but cant hear him =/


lol.
at least i can seeee his face!
=P





and the other was food.
WE HAD STEAMBOAT.
:D



okays although I LOVE STEAMBOAT.
i think im scared of it already.
lol!


cny always make me scared of things i like to eat :x











hmmmm.
i think i'll stop here.
and go read up somemore stuff.
(:


im a GOOD GIRL!
=P













see ya people!
:D

26Jan09
12:54am


HAPPY CNY PEOPLE!
:D






hmmm.
my dear dear must be sound asleep now..
sleeping sweetly,
hugging his bolster.
=P

cuteee.


hahahas.
cause he didnt sleep for 3days already!
poor deardear.
sayang.








hmmm.
one of the nights he was with me.
we went to his friend's house to stayover.
9 of us.
mahjong, mac, poker and liquor and breakfast. (:






okay it was kinda sian,
everyone was sleepyy and lethargic.
:X


but the feeling of staying over at a place with alot of people,
chatting,
playing games,
and having dear with me,
its nice(:

and i like spending the night with dear(:





den yesterday night,
dear went out with his sec sch buddies.
and i went out to cwp for movie with shing and weijie.
all's well end's well.
(:


it was kinda a lame show,
weijie fell asleep.
LOL.








and wow,
recently i took so many times cab!
lol!

its addictive.
=X






i want a job!
tuition best arh.
lol.


im so gonna go look for jobs.
i want moneyyy!
den got more to spend.. (:









today is the first day of cny!
planned for movie at marina 4pm with dear.
):

but in the end,
we were at jiejie's house.



sorry dear.
im sorry ur plans always got changed by me..
i want to go to all the places u suggested bringing me..
i didnt mean to always change it...

sorry that you have to compromise with me everytime..
and thanks for not throwing tempers with me.
and just act like nothing happened...
(:




i really appreciate dear.
i love you.
(:









and i realised.
just having my dear around me sometimes is really happy for me.
its like we could be doing our own stuff.
but having you around..
there's this nice feeling(:





muacks.
:X



okay sorry people.
abit mushy.
=P




but its really what i wanna say to my deardear(:











and dear!
here's another song dedicating to you!(:


走火入魔

词曲：阿信

演唱：丁当 阿信




阿信：一字一句一瞬间 走了火

丁当：一天一点一转眼 入了魔

阿信：忘了我从什么时候

丁当：忘了你为什么能够让我

合：一步一步 走火入魔


:D













and lastly.
im gonna post one superrrrrr cute pic =P
and im off to bed.
*yawn*

=P










my deardear's kindergarden graduation pic!
=P

23Jan09
5:19pm

hi~~

am having a slight headache now..
but dun feel like sleeping.









hmmm.
was looking through my pictures and stuff.
found this picture i saved from an forwarded email.
i remembered it was really sweet.
the email.
was abt a guy's thinking of why he should do the things he have to do to his gf.



























there.
hahahas.
and i think its really sweet.
(:








hmmm.
today didnt feel like having lessons.
like holiday mooood arh~


wanted to skip fmgt tutorial de.
lol.

but in the end,
elizabeth pulled me to class.
(:





dear you werent much help =P
hahahas.
jkjk.
okay lahs.
abit~
=P








den after class,
went to meet dear!
(:


and we all went makan place for lunch:D


aisyah,jessica,eugene,ryan,cindy,me and deardear(:





soon lunch break for jess ended,
and the rest went to the library to study.
me and dear went to the bus stop.
he got straight bus back to toa payoh(:



but hmmm.
thought of going fish shop at clementi there with him..
but in the end,
he said got straight bus more convenient.
so he went off when his bus came.

one hour earlier than expected..
hahas.
so in the end,
i went to cwp walk walk and wait for my godmother.


on the bus back to cwp got this headache.
hahas.
think its weather or something.
or im overstressing recently.









headache
headache
headache
go away~

LOL.

like that will help..









hmmm.
tomorrow gonna see deardear.
yays.



we going swimming!
my fav sport :D

lalalala~


lol.










i feel like going to the very grand movie theatre with deardear again.
we went to watch twilight last time :D

im listening to the songgg i loveee in the movie =P





wanna sleep gently and softly in deardear's arm(:








anyways,
just in case i wont be here these few days..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !
:D



loves~!

oh yah.
my da sao uploaded the remaining pics of the sentosa trip we all went together.
:D

its all at my facebook.
hees.
but im particularly in love with this one.

cause its the first time i played with the sand at a beach.
i actually sat down.
and play with the sand!
and have the sand all over me !
haahas.
yap(:

22Jan09
10:17am

heyyy hellos.

am in EAA class now.
people are doing the sheets and database and stuff,
but my SageAccpac got problem.
-.-

database setup is MISSING.
LOL.

so well,
im sorta like reinstalling.
so while waiting i can come blog!
=P





hmmm.
not exactly gonna blog about the post i've mentioned previously.
but got a few things to sayy.(:







i read this email.
and im gonna copy paste here.
i agreeee with alot of the things it said, and am gonna bold and enlarge the ones i think is very trueeee. :D

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.




so yapp.
(:


dear i really agreeeee u know! :X
hees.







hmmm.
oh yah yesterday dear came and find me :D
fetch me from school!

and he was like have to wait in the library for 1hr+,
awwww.
cause i was having lessons.


really appreciate u coming down after u book out to fetch me dear! (:










and im just copied and paste this song's lyrics.
i loveeee it since i watched the show with my dad.
x)

so sweeet.

随梦而飞
《江山美人》主题曲


你带我飞我飞我飞
带给我活着的滋味
忘掉伤悲随风而飞
每一秒像过了一辈
一去不回的飞啊飞
这就是我们的堡垒
什么也无所谓
人生难得一次越轨
是你告诉我是谁.
(:




sweeeeeet.
im dedicating it to my dear!(:












hmmmm.
just nice.
finished reinstalling already.
:D


see you guys! :D

21Jan09
11:47pm


i wanna blogggggggggggggggggggg!

i wanna show u guys the day i cooked my first dinner!

and show u guys the DELICIOUS lunch my dear dear made for me!
:D



but i need to do my EAA homework now..
and im so sleepyyyyy.
T.T



so i guess i have to wait.




AND YAYS.

MY MUMMY IS REACHING SINGAPORE TML!

SHE'S SPENDING NEW YEAR BACK WITH ME AND DAD! x)





muacks ppl! :D

17Jan2009
12:19pm

hi.





ive been thinking for quite a while.
and realised alot of things.








conclusion would be..
ive always wanted my loved ones,
friends,
family,
dear,

to feel happy.


i try all sorts of way to make everyone of them happy.
cause i like to see them smile.
(:





but guess its another time in my life that i feel tired.
there was once before,
yearsssss back.


being jumpy,
cheerful,
constantly smiling,
being sensitive to everyone of you,
understanding everyone of you..

im tired..






not that im tired,
and am not gonna do anything abt you ppl.
(:


i still love you guys.
been brightening up my life.
making me feel warm to have you guys in my life.






maybe i need a time-out..
maybe i just wanna be the one who's being doted on for a change.
even for a while.









actually this post would have been even more SAD.
but dear gave me a call when i reached blogspot.com.
(:

so i feel a little better already(:












ilove all of you(:

16Jan2009
11:13pm! =P

im so sleepy already.
maybe cause i've not been on the com for a few days in a row..
and i've been turning in early everyday this week.

not that i suddenly became a good girl.. =P
is cause i had headaches..
and well,
sleep and it will go away.
HAHAS.






hmmm.
this week i didnt sleep in classes!
lectures and tutorials~~
=P

well maybe a little at MA tutorial.
but onli in the beginning okays?!

and its not just abt staying awake..
i got listen and understand eh!
hahas.
=P

happy can?
like after so long.
second sem of slacking gonna end.
LOL.


hopefully this continues and i can still make it for a 3.
(:










back to the headaches issue..
today was the second time my illness strikee.

that day the headache got really painful.
today i felt nauseous and was all weak when im on the bus reaching cwp.




that day dear accompanied me on the phone.
cause he was in camp..
and couldnt come out..



today dear just nice was meeting me.
and yays.
he accompanied me till i felt better.
(:





dear your hugs are so comfortable!
(:




muacks.
iloveyou(:











well, den abit disappointed dear cant go mount faber steamboat with us on sunday...
so unexpected..
):

wanted to go eat steamboat with deardear..
oh wells..

happy bday to his baby cousin(:











i wanna change blogskin.
i wanna write an eng song!
i wanna do my tutorials~
i wanna go coldstorage and buy groceries =P






i want hug my dear dear too :D










hey i just got bitten by a mosquito.
lol.

long ages since i last got bitten by one.
its at the side of my left wrist -.-

hahahas.
goes to show my blood is still sweet?
=P









hmmm.
i love all my friends!!!
x)






hahahahahas.
abit random.
but i mean it !!
:D


dun know how i'll live without my family,
my friends,
my dear.
(:






i think i'll go off to bed now..
really kinda tiredd.
(:

nightnight.
sleep tight everyone! (:

13thJan2009
11:22pm

hellooooooooooooooos!
hahas.

am actually very sleepy..
though i still sound energetic.
hahas.



so tireddd.
im going straight to bed after blogging this.
hees.


my i&e is finally over.
and thanks to all the friends who supported us!
we managed to cover all expenses!
:D

thank you for making this event SUCESSFUL!
(:










im all sweet right now..
since yesterday night when me and dear were talking abt stuff via sms.
and it extended till today,
till tonight.
till now. (:





well dear dear cant go genting with me,
so im not going already..

cause seriously theres nth there.
just that if i go with dear,
it will be a WHOLE different trip?
hahahas.
:X




and well,
yes dear!
we will have chance of going overseas together in the future de.
i wont forget you said that!
so cant run awayyy~~
=P







hmmm and one good news!
i was so on form today~
guess i did pick up abit of stuff from lecture last week.
hopefully this week too! :D


and im gonna start studying and do up my tutorials already :D
i wanna get a good gpa.
(:







deardear just left my house ..
should have reached back to his camp.
(:


thanks dear for coming over to accompany me.
i lovee the melting kiss chocolate =P

and i hope u like the card =P




iloveyou(:





and ps! I LOVE AISYAH, JESSICA, ELIZABERTH!
hearts hearts hearts! :D


and of course, everyone who helped me out !
love all my friends!!!! x)



muacks ppl..
im off to bed =P


see you~!

11thJan2009
9.30pm

hmmm.
im wishing you will appear at my door and give me a smile to open the door.
and you'll accompany me till you need to go camp.

hahas.
but i guess not..
cause you arent as sweet as me! :X


hahas.
was kinda hurt this afternoon over something u said dear.
and we talked it over..
right dear?
(:



im happy we can always talk it out nicely and not end up quarreling or whatever(:



and im sure you will understand where im coming from in the future right?(:







hmmm.
yesterday did say wanna help u paint house..
in the end,
also never paint dao..
*puff*

i guess have to wait till next time le.
hehe.
:X




i really love having u accompany me home..
though i always got this cant bear feeling when ur going off..
hees.



oh and i hope you like the mickey keychain..
though it was another failed surprise. HAHA.
(:


they can onli kiss when we meet HAHA.
:X



wells.
people!
tml is my grp's i&e!

we are selling cards and little gifts at NP orchard road tml(12) and 13th!
got campus delivery service somemore. :D

so do come and support kays! :D

i think the cards we made are really cute =P
dont believe?
come see for urself HEHE.


:D

and oh yah, i got the pics i managed to take on new year's eve,

the night out with dar, her dear and my dear(:

sometimes im so jealous of the games dear play or his buddies.
lol....

its time to teach my dear how to multi-task!
HAHA.





imissyou dear.
sigh.
















































































































































































































muacks.

8thJan09
12:57am

got a feeling ill be coming to blog more often now.
hmmm.


im going to bed soon,
feel so sleepy.
eyelids are still heavy from 2 days ago.



hope it wont be anymore tml..
(:




had a long long day today.
felt sweet at night(:

thanks to dar and her dear.
lol.
always troubling them..
ps!



at first just went yew tee..
eat dinner~

den dar came and look for us.
after a while,
went to have a long car ride :X

lol!

in the end, we went to this yishun dam.
nice place..

it reminds me of the sea back in penang(:
outside gurney plaza(:




dear strong huh!
im too =P

and ive got tooth marks on my arms.
ALOT.
lol.

*punch dear*
lol.




im so sleepy now..
goodnight people..(:




muacks. imissyou.

7thJan09
12:45am


hellos.

im here to dedicate this entry to my dear.
i wonder if he'll come and see.

but anyways.

just wanna say things.
just wanna hug him close and never let go.



all i want now is to return to how we were back then.
sweet.
happy.
loved.




im doing all i can,
facing up to all the problems.
with nth else in mind other than going back to be happy together with dear.



im so heartbroken when i heard so many things he said.
im sorry dear.







deardear.
i know we can get through this and love each other again.
im giving my all to bring you back.






iloveyou.(:

6thJan09
1200am.

at the strike of twelve,
ive made another person mad at me.
):


I HATE THIS FEELING.

had been crying so much today.
im really very scared and helpless.

i dun want things to go this way.





im so screwing up everything.
so many people is angry with me.
so many people is upset with me.



WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?

why am i always screwing things up?

and making all the people that i like angry, upset.




what have i become?

ive become such a lousy girl.
who lets everyone disappointed and sad abt me.






i've screwed up their lives,
and i've screwed up my life.
):




I DUN WANT MY LIFE TO BE LIKE THIS.


i dun wanna make my friends or loved ones angry anymore.
):




i want everything to be back to normal.






im sorry.
really sorry.









im terribly upset.
thanks dar for accompanying me whenever im torn apart.
whenever i feel like breaking down.







pda, dar both told me..
that all i can do now is to prove to them.

show them im willing to change for them.


its true.
thats all i can do now.


im sorrrry.

dont leave me.
i need you to be by my side.




i need all of you back.
i want all of you to be with me again.
):






my mood cooled down after talking to dad for the past 40mins..
luckily my dad and dar was there for me.

or i'll be having small one line eyes tml. lol.....

night people...
-12.41am

3rdJan09
10:48pm

hey helloooooooooooooooos!

had my butt stuck on this chair and my eyes on the screen for the whole day already.

and NO NO im not playing facebook,
or any other online games.

i was writing down what i need to do,
and studied the MA elearning week materials.

alright, it isnt much.
its not a big deal either.
cause i still have tonnes of stuff to do.
):



i have a full page of an a5 size notebook of stuff to do.





anyways, was blog hopping for the past 1/2 an hr,
before i continue on my work(:


so thought should come and blog too(:





my new year's eve was spent with dear, dar and her dear(:
that night was really magical(:
i did everything i've always wanted.
i felt everyway i've always wanted.



to spend the night sitting down by the river at clarke quay(:

to go see how its like at the late night parties(:

to have deardear really love and dote on me(:

to hear deardear sing love songs to me(:

all the pictures is with dar..
so will wait till i get from her(:






and..
its 2009 already.
fast huhh?

the number has changed.
lol.

and i think i should blog my resolutions here too(:


1. to study well, getting an average gpa of 3 and above for the rest of the sems.
2. never to end up in quarrels with friends ANYMORE.
3. to always show my love and appreciation for others.(:
4. to slim down more.
5. although this is the last, doesnt mean its the least impt.
- TO BE HAPPY WITH MY DEAR EVERYDAY.(:







my mummy just went back to penang last night. ):
i missed her so much last night, after i came back from johor.
luckily dear accompanied me on the phone.

sorry dear, that i held on so long when you arent feeling that well,
but i really did feel alot better(:





deardear had been painting his house since yesterday.
so busyyyy.
):

couldnt spare time to talk with me.
sigh.

but oh wells.
painting the house is like that one.
so im okay with it.
(:



but i cant finish my work!
so i cant go see him tomorrow.

which means i have to wait till 9thjan.
when he comes out of camp):



nooooooooooooooooooo~~

I HATE SCHOOL ):
I HATE HOMEWORK ): (when i dun know how to do)
I HATE PROJECTS ):


i guess i chose the wrong course.
or ive just purely lost my interest in studying.



but!
I SHALL NOT PREVAIL TO MY FATE.

i've chosen this course before,
and i shall not regret. (:

i will graduate with a diploma (:




as for the future,
i just want to get a stable income job that i like doing.
can be any job(:

and i just wanna spend my life with my loved one(:






night people!
im off to do my work again.
(:



ps. a pic i just got off da sao's facebook.
shes uploading more =P

your love gives me wings.

simple.
loving.
cheerful. (:

to wait for the day when i will give you everything in this world.