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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

22Dec09
11.14pm

you're all that im waiting for..

its tearing me apart.
and only you can make it all better.

so baby,
tell me.

where are you?
):

i feel terrible.

and im losing myself.
fast.
):

im so losing myself.
i just wanna breakdown.

just wanna cry.
and try to feel all better and hold on.

promise me.
that you will.

......
...

Y6:59 AM

Thursday, December 10, 2009

10Dec09
10.57pm

so sleeeeepy.

but am gonna do up my grp's project planning "report".
need to consolidate all the information.

SOMEBODY reminded me that i still have a blog.
haha.

so POOF.
here i am.(:

i once described to a friend of mine about what i think is my life like now.
and farah i told u,

i feel like im trapped in a tornado,
trying to survive in it,
and hoping it will come to a stop one day.

i really think ive been through the most things these two years out of my nineteen.

and i suppose.
i cant adapt and get used to the fact that i m growing up.
and i have to.

ive never been truly happy.
since that day.

i really wish i could have understood what it was,
and to give you back what u deserved.

but its all too late now.

you're gone.

but at least i can tell ur happy now.
(:

tell me what i thought is true.

cause it will give me the hope and strength to go on in life.

to continue searching the only thing i want in this life.

i wanna say.

after a year or two,
i didnt forget how u were there for me.

and for the rest of my life,
i never will.
(:

i think my life now is kinda chaotic.
i mean if u dun compare it to african kids who doesnt have any food.

im living on without a direction.
living on, losing the faith.

and i always screw things up now.

with nobody really there to comfort me and tell me its alright and make me feel all better again.

i guess im just not independent enough.

i miss you.

Y6:43 AM