30may08
5.16PM

i wanna watch NARNIA PRINCE CASPIAN.






















OMGGGGGGG.
i wanna watch. =/

my cousin hao lian to me she go watched premieres.
T.T
*cries

lols.

TA08 PEEPS!
let's make narnia our first outing!!!!
:DDD

HAHAHAAS.
=X

okayss now i really gonna start on my costaccounting le.
or its KO for me.
lols.

GG.

30may08
1:35 PM

hellos!
hahahahas.

yays finally my blogpost can choose colour.
lols.

hmmms.
bcomm teacher finally called me.
lols.

this 5% telephone etiquette thing is finally over~~~~~~~~
lols.

was damn scary at first.
because we were all in a convo in msn.
stephanie said she kena already.
den was jacklyn.

O.O
lols.
den the rest of us in the convo all havent kena.
so were like waiting for death.
LOL.

but alot of jokes lahsss.
lols.
ryan was doing biz when he got the call!
lols.

so funnyyyyyyyy.
and yeah its cool we actually came together as a class and share the moments of FEAR.
lols!


the teacher called and i was like trembling all the way.
HAHAHAS.

wait arhsss.
mummy brought lunch back~~~
lunch break~~~


okayss halfway through my NASI LEMAK.
:DD

back to the telephone etiquette.
lols.
i think i did pretty well.
lols.
at least i didnt forget this or that.
but i heard wrongly what she wanted to know.

she ask me what souveniers to buy back to her HK boss in singapore.
i thought she ask me where to buy.
lols.

but yeah she then prompt me.
asked again.
LOL.
den yeah answered.
she damn cuteeeeeeeee.
lols.


now after my lunch,
i'll be doing my tax elearning tutorial.
O.O
den study for costaccounting paper tml.
T.T

hahahaas.





still got lots of questions and doubts.
=/
i really wish i can ask u.
but they thought its better to keep it a secret first.
lols.
maybe when i tell u.
you'll be so scared you'll run away and never talk to me again.
HAHAHAS.
=/

okaysss.
GOOD LUCK in the papers coming up to all my FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:DDDD

we can do it man!
den let's go out after the papers!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wooooohooooooooooooo.
:DDD

29may08
8:38PM


LOL.
i am here to blog again.


LOL.


i think i neglect my blog for too long already.
hahahaas.
and i love my new skin..
so the urge to blog.
LOL.


wells.
got two things i wanna blog abt.
first is this.
















hahahas. nice right.
so cute.
and its meaningful too.
it's my wallpaper now.
HAHAS.


wells.
step3 to goal like very far.
LOL.
so long le i still stuck at step3.
T.T


hahahas.
okayss.
den is







































for those of you who doesn't know what's a heffalump.
heffalump is winnie the pooh's new friend family.
and HIM, the purple one is LUMPY.
:DDD


cute right?!!!
i want one.
$26.90 lehs.
wo de tiansss.
so expensive..............

btw this is the 2nd edition already.
last time giftaname sold that version nt as nice.
this one is just ADORABLE.
lols!


wells.
wont buy for myself one.
so ex.
lols.
thanks to cindy got let me take one photo for ji nian.
hahahahas.

:DD

yapp.
these 2 done.
den got other things.


westlife! <3


HEHEHE.
my new fav band is westlife.
YEAH.

:DDD

got alot of fav songs.
will intro here when i have the time.
for the timebeing let me give u the list.


heart without a home.
miss you.
the rose.
you raise me up.
i'm already there.
home. (onli the front part where shane sings.)
the easy way.
when you come around.
unbreakable.
my love.
if i let you go.
swear it again.
how does it feel.


and lots more.
hahahahas.


fav singer in westlife is SHANE FILAN. <3
hehe.
his voice damn niceeeeeeeeeeee.

:DD


and since we're on the topic of songs,
tell you 2 eng songs i LOVE.


nsync - this i promise you.
98 degrees - i do(cherish you)
<33

dreams of my husband singing it to me on our wedding day.
will be damn touched.
provided he sing nicely lahsss.
=X

lols.
dreaming.
scarli.
im gonna die at an old age all alone.
LOL.

T.T


oh and another topic!
cindy drew me an onigiri back in the afternoon to cheer me up.

:D















LOL.
cute right.
:DD



btw,
having a problem to blog here.
i put one pic den have to re-align all my words over again.
O.O
this calls for my 4th aiai-shuqi!
lols.

=X












and...
wells YOU very cute today.
hahahas.
=X


but as i said.
me to continue or to give up.
depends on you.
at the moment.
i just hope you feel the same.
=/

29may08
2:58PM

fish it. blogger time got problem. -.-
i shall put the date and time before all my post from now on.
LOL.

okays.
i still havent finish my elearning stuff.
lols.

was playing penguin diner at http://www.y8.com/.
lols.
faints*
but at least i helped the penguin to get enough money to pay for her fare back to her home.
meaning i completed the game.
LOL.

very siansss now.
cause i got things i wanna say but cant say.
=/


i dont wanna deny but i have to.
wells maybe denying is good.
since you're all so cold to me already.

let me deny it and make it real.
nth can happen unless you feel the same way as me.
which doesnt seem to be the case.



feelings fades as time pass.
and when it's gone, it will never be there anymore.

friends told me not to live in the past.
they told me i should look ahead.
move on as they did.
but the past is all i have.
and trust me.
its hard to walk out of the past and walk ahead.


time and again, it happens.
why does it have to happen?
cant there be ONE person who stays on??

please come back.. =/

yays in sch now.
suppose to do finish all my elearning work.

lols.
but yeah not productive arhss.

thanks shuqi aiai for helping me with my blog!
now i love it.
<3

:DD

feeling hungry lehs.
was moody just now.

lols.
den you came to talk to me in msn.
wo de tiansss.
it's amazing how you can influence how i feel.

LOL.
=X



kader coming to join me and shawn now.
buying sandwiches for us!
yays.


cindy and sean never come sch today with us.
gary was around den he went off to play pool.
lols.


gonna have scc at 6pm.
performing the song tonight!
hehes.




lols.
now my mood is damn jolly.
lols.

=X




lalalaalalaas.
:D

hellos.
=]
do u like my new blogskin?
=]


lols.
i'm moody again.
and for the first time, i feel like getting myself drunk would help.

LOL.

its no longer just because of him.
i think i am too afraid of being alone.
of having no one to talk to.


feeling empty.

=/


if you treat me like you used to, would it fill my emptiness?
wells, maybe it wont.


maybe my heart and brain got problem.
-.-

i hate this.
i wanna be the old me.

carefree.
cheerful.
consoling ppl and not ppl consoling me.
happy everyday.


:(


i will do my elearning stuff tonight.
and study for common tests tml.

btw.
today went clubhouse to practice song with my groupmates.
=]

one full song.
and tml at monthly performance we gonna perform it.
=]


<3

will post the video of the performance if i can here.
=]

okays.

was moody over you when i thought of coming to blog tonight.

but now feeling abit better.

cause you are talking to me!

:DDD





at first was boring lecture (costacc).

den got bcomm2 networking assessment.

O.O

first must wear formal.

shirt buttons open at censored place.

O.O

lols.

but managed to get over it.

den was the thing itself.

i was the host.

general manager.

wth.

i didnt know what to say lors.

and u know the most ridiculous part is..

(i've been talking abt it for the whole day)

there were onli fork and knives on the table...

and i ordered and recommended LEMON CHICKEN RICE for me and my clients.

-.-

after ordering den realised.

still say 'eh, no spoon arh?'

-.-


wells.

its totally screwed.

hope i pass.

LOLs.

formal wear shots to be uploaded when i got time and if i remember.

=]

so then.

the 5 of us had lunch today!

cindy, gary, shawn, sean and me!

:DD

wanted canteen2 but yeah atrium was good too.

LOL.

damn fun when we all have lunch together.

cause they are all so funny!

like...

sean make alot of echo in the atrium, LOL!

and gary.

seanmayidrinkthankyou.hehehe!

LOL!!!!

that was damn cute.

LOL!!

=X

den soon tall shawn has to go class.

sean go do project.

gary pon lecture to go library with me and cindy.

LOL!!

not productive at all lahs...

LOL.

cause glenn was around.

a while here and a while there.

den kader came also.

LOL!!

everything was so funny.

from the chats abt last time sean's expression with glenn,

to gary answering shawn's phone call,

to kader trying to molest glenn,

to kader viewing glenn's pretty friend on friendster and trying to print the pics of her out using the printer in the library!

LOL!

that was a real joke man!!

lol.

everyone was crowding behind kader and saw what he wanted to print.

O.O

lol!!!

so in the end.

2-6.30

i onli did IFA 2a. journal entries.

LOL!





at first quite siansssss.

cause u didnt come library find us..

thought you will..

and when u didnt, thought u still in sch..

knew i wasnt suppose to call u, sms u or anything as previously said.

but yeah.

i still did.

but also nth happen.

lol.

u already went home.

-.-

den took like 2 hrs to go home.

WO DE TIANSSSSS.

was all the way moody..

siansss..

few mins ago i was feeling abit "teary"...

LOL.

den u talked to me.

and u realised my moodiness!

LOL!!

damn happy.

=P



alright...

that will be all..

got tax classtest tml.

5% lehs..

LOL.

byebye~~

18 may 08
1:36 Am

damn upset now. MOODY.

feeling violent.

FK FK FK FK!!!!

=X

okay good things first.

today's daryl's bday!!

TUZHU~~

lol.

went to his house for his bday party.

=]]

at first was quite siansss.

cause got nth to do..

i dont know piano. dont know guitar. dont know the games.

den den buffet started.

eat~~ eat~~

den chitchat with this little girl and her mummy.

Joey! :D

her mum very friendly. :DD

den cut cake~!

HAPPY BDAY DARYL!

soon, they started playing the guitar and singing.

and i dont know when started to be the AV crew.

take videos of their performance.

LOL.

concert!!

hahahas.

and it was like 1 hr plus??

LOL.

got chinese got english songs~

said 9 want go home..

den soon it was 9.32..

den it was 10.25...

LOL!

in the end i left at 11 i think.

took a pic with little joey before i left!!

:D



hehe.

sweet isnt her?

like a small princess.

=]

so thats about all for daryl's 18th bday party!

=]








den had to go home alone.

the way down and out to the main road.

got abit pa pa.

called someone.

he didnt pick up.

=/



managed to go all the way.

den sms-ed him.

to ask him why he didnt pick up.

HE REPLIED.

SO HE WAS WITH HIS PHONE.

=/

busy or didnt hear?

BUSY.

=/


i know i am in no position to be angry or what. he's just my friend. but i am upset. VERY UPSET. i dont know why. but what i feel is, he's not interested in talking to me, to keep in contact with me. EVEN IF I DONT TALK TO HIM EVER AGAIN, HE WOULDNT MIND ANYMORE! because. even if you're busy. you see ur friend's no. on ur phone. would u not pick it up? normal behaviour would be to pick up and say sorry i'm busy. and if you're concerned abt me... you'll try to listen to what i have to say. i know its lame to say i am scared of ghosts and i want u to accompany me on the phone. BUT I AM SCARED WHAT! what can i do?!! i will call u because you're the one i wanna call when i am scared! because i think it will calm me! not everyone has the same effect my dear!!! ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=/

it really hurts me that you've changed.

I HATE TIME! it makes everyone change. WHY DO EVERYONE HAVE TO CHANGE?! =[

why cant good friends stay good forever.

why cant you treat a person the same way you do forever???




i think i like you.

i realised it ever since you changed.

it all started after the BAOC.

now what bothers me is.

did you ever like me?

did you like me when you treated me so good for the last few mths?

or you're just so friendly with every girl?




I HATE IT WHEN YOU JUST TELL ME THE WORD 'BUSY'.

its nt just because ur busy.

its because you've lost interest in me or something.

its because you dont care no more.

its a type of natural reaction.

you cant really see it unless you sit down and think abt it in depth.


but aiya i dont know how to say lahs.

this morning i was thinking.

i'll wait till this sem ends.

if you choose the same class as us again, i'll confess my feelings to you.

if you choose to change other class and be with HER, i'll give you up.

if you choose to be in the same class as us, but pull her in, i'll see how u treat me and her and choose to confess or give you up.





but now..

i think i should stop being a nuisance.

and dont try to be close to you anymore.

i think i should give up on you NOW.

today.

this moment.

=/




cause you dont feel the same way as me.

and you're hurting me ALOT.

i dont wanna cry over you again.

its the 2nd time today.







for the past few weeks.

i tried to disturb you..

sms you..

its just because i wanna be close to you.

but you were always so cold.

6 weeks since the change.

i miss the time when we chat everyday.

i miss the time when you will come looking for me suddenly.

i miss the time when we will even sms each other when i'm overseas.

i miss the time when you will talk to me when i come to you with lalalas.


BUT U CHANGED.

why must you change??





i promised myself.

i shall nt disturb u anymore.

i will never call u again.

i will nt come to u when i'm scared.

when i'm lost.

when i need someone.

NEVER EVER.

your love gives me wings.

simple.
loving.
cheerful. (:

to wait for the day when i will give you everything in this world.