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Thursday, January 14, 2010

14January2010
11.10pm

Currently playing: Flightless Bird, American Mouth (Twilight)

<3 twilight.

hmmmmm.
sooooo...
its been long since i came, ONCE AGAIN.
haha.

not currently at a tip top form now in my life.
rather caught and all tangled up.
trying to struggle out but succumb cause its tough to.

leaving the problems to drag on everyday.

not feeling truly happy.

why is it so hard....

why is it that all the timings have to be jumbled up.

and why cant things be much more simple?

):

all i want..
is to be happy with the right person.

to live on in life,
be happy for all the little things.

im graduating soon.
in less than 2 months of internship left.

i have yet to review for any jobs yet.
yet to think of whether i wanna lead a different life than:

work and study acca part time.

but another job means starting from square1 all over again.

then again... im not very strong in accounting anyways.
so its like im onli at maybe square3?
lol.

anyways,
that aside.

ive been feeling very tensed up recently.

i even had problems falling asleep few days ago.

which is almost impossible cause i always fall asleep super easily.

haha.

feeling troubled deep inside,
not strong enough to face up to it.

reluctant to face it too.

the past are all haunting me.

and time passes so fast everyday,

with all the new things that are pushing their way into my life..

its kinda hard to handle.

to grow up in just 2 years.
to change.
to lose my original self.

to be trapped and unable to break free.

):

but life still goes on,
i have to find a way to break free.

i have to find a way to survive.

to just continue living.

you're the only reason for me living on.
my life... is incomplete without you.

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