Sunday, February 28, 2010
28Feb1010:44pmone more month ending~to mark the end of the month, here i am blogging.i was reminded of my blog yesterday. but didnt have the feel to come blog. today ive got somethings to talk about (:well firstly, i went to my couzzie's house today.quite late actually.(first half of the day was in bed, totally beat)didnt have any appetite today.couldnt eat much.so just anyhow eat abit.den she asked us to watch movie. me, her and her bf.this movie is from Japan.the name is Sky of Love.catchy name isnt it? (:so we watched.its a nice show.and yes i did cry too.lol.its a love story.about this girl.they shared this love together..the kind that is true i guess.(:the guy was very sweeeet.but den after a yr like that, he got terminal cancer.): right?and he made the girl hate him.so that she would move on and wouldnt be sad when he's dead one day.so they broke up. and they were not together for like one yr plus.):until one day she finally know why he didnt want to stay with her from a friend of his.her bf then was kinda poor thing. but was really nice to have let her go.knowing that she loves the first guy dearly.luckily..they got to spend his last days together...its a very touching story....(:and in case ur wondering why the movie is called sky of love, its because.the girl always described him as a river.that always move forward. gushing through.but the guy always told her.he wants to be like the sky.so that,no matter where the girl is, he will always be able to see her and find her.(:and now when the girl misses him , she would look at the sky..and think about all that they had.(:tml...is another work day.well.i dun wanna deny.but the me now.am just going to work and finishing the stuff.because i have to.i dread it when monday comes. and that i can only really rest down on fri night...and currently.i lost even the little sense of comfort in my life.its for the better of things.because a little arent gonna work for the long term.tell me...when?how long do i still have to wait for u?ppl say im desperate.ppl say i shouldnt be throwing myself at guys.ppl say maybe if i really go slim down, i'll get some guys who likes me.ppl say not being in a relationship doesnt mean im not good.ppl say its just not the right time.ppl say just dont force it and it will happen.i know all these.but my heart arent willing to listen....hah...i just want that someone who truly loves me, and we would be there for each other.because to me, that someone is all im living for.my greatest goal in life.is to find someone who would treasure me just as much.but den again.maybe i'll never find a bf again.maybe nobody will ever like me again.maybe i'm gonna die alone.i need to learn how to live alone.
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Friday, February 05, 2010
5Feb201011.22pmhey. been long since i came here. thought i wanna come update for awhile.my life's changing.growing up and fully taking over the responsibilities of an adult very very soon.my internship ends on 12Feb, which is just 5 more working days.and my final submissions of everything on 22feb would mark the end of my poly years.fast huh?but im continuing to work at the place, so im getting a job.gotta work hard.been thinking abt what steps to take in my life.and ive come to this conclusion.i will work here and take up short enrichment courses on accounting until july this year.i heard july is the take in for ACCA.i have until june to decide if i wanna continue in this profession.most prob yes.ive always have the interest but i guess the environment of the job doesnt suit me very well.of course, i will learn to live it well.so i will most prob study ACCA part time while on the job,and continue working in accounting for like 10-15 years?in between i will take up other courses, in my other interest.kids.maybe an early childhood course.and dancesport classes. (:so after like 10-15 years, when im stable, i might move on to my next job that suits my character more.and one day,when my parents are no longer with me, i will move to somewhere beautiful out there,far from singapore.i will live my life there.stay there happily, have a meaningful or at least decent job that im happy in, enjoy the peaceful and calm life every single day.learning to be happy from all the little things in nature.that means the place must be somewhere off town.right?and i will spend one happy, sweet and calming life with one who i share my heart with.my mum said im a dreamer to think this way.and that i shouldnt think like that.someone told me ive got to believe that there are no fairytales in this world.and that after a few more years, i would believe in what he said.im not 100% sure that its gonna be easily achieved.but this is my dream.my ultimate goal in life.and i will take any chance that comes by to fulfil this dream.(:and so.i was just thinking abt..WHERE?and i found myself googling.i googled FORKS.lol.yes twilight forks.from the show, its a perfect place.but maybe a little too wet and cold for me.there are places to stay, with the houses along each street, people living just next door, the forest and the beach is beautiful.perfect places.and there are shopping malls too, with the movie theatres.so i still get to shop and watch movies with my friends when i feel like it.(:quite an ideal place, and who knows.i might find my edward cullen there too.haha.so thats abt it for today's post.(: take care people! and always remember to keep ur heart open. and willing to love. dun be changed by the devouring environment we're in. (:
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