welcome to chewyan's world(:

Monday, August 17, 2009

17Aug09
4.45pm

i should be moving on like u.

but i cant stop thinking abt u.

and i miss u.
):

and all the things we said we will do and places we would go..

they will never happen already isnt it?

):

why....

why cant that person be you?
))):

take care.
and misses*

Y1:33 AM

Sunday, August 16, 2009

16Aug09
5.18pm

tell me.

will i ever feel that way?

mummy had been watching this hk drama recently.
Click入黄金屋。

there's this background music that they have in the show.

its a love song between a couple.

the guy composed it for her.
(:

its a very beautiful piece of instrumental i would say.

and actually what caught my attention was that he plays it with a harmonica(:

im listening to that song now.
(:

well in that show,
i didnt watch all.
but saw abit here and there.

saw their sweet times.

really sweet.

but there was a point where the girl has to leave him.
cause of some reasons.

and i was so annoyed by the fact that the guy actually went out with another girl.
after she left to go overseas.

but in the end,
i suppose something happened that made them realise how much they love each other,

it was a happy ending with the both of them back together.
(:

cant stop listening to that song.
got pictures and images when i listen to it. (:

and i saw some pictures on facebook.
they are really very happy and sweet together.

im happy for them too.
(:

haha.
i guess i should be back at my notes now.
byebye.

Y2:06 AM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

15Aug09
10:09pm

so long since my last post~~

so im back againn tonight.

was studying and playing fb, viwawa and blah blah for the whole day on my chair with wheels.

my back sourrr sia.
so now im sitting on my bed.(:

comfy comfy.
and very cosy too.

with all my stuff toys and pillows.
haha.

im still wayyy behind my plan to study.

but i wont give up.
cause this is the last time(:

i will do well.

thus, i must put in more effort.
(:

alot of things happened since the last post too.

like the day ta01 and ta03 peeps went to orchard together(:

i call it the G.I.Joe day.
haha.

loveeeeeeee that show!
x)

and of course the companions as well(:

that day was funn.
ate at billy bombers. (never ate there before)

watched G.I.Joe.

went shopping with the guys and the girls.

eating mac as supper.

and sitting at the platform outside taka at night.

and all the laughters and camwhoring the whole day!
from the time we board the bus headed for orchard.
all the way till we parted with eliz at orchard to go home.
(:

den another thing would be two days ago.
firstly, me and serlee (my gf) went to orchard to buy formal wear as well as her nerd glasses.

it was kinda fun.
like a date.
lol.

we even bought couple rings!
(:
one each.

first couple ring of mine.
(:

den shopp along with her,
and i bought two long sleeved top and one pencil skirt at G2000.
having this great sale.

i really like em.
given that the price wasnt very costly.

and the buying of formal wears like this make me feel like im all grown up.

a grown up woman.(:

are gonna use those for my attachment.
which starts on sept7.

and well.
we are confirm not gonna do audit.

but now its like it might be accounts and it might be management accounting o.o

I DUN WANT MANAGEMENT ACCOUNTING OR COSTING.
pleaseeeeeeeeee.
T.T

lol.
but high chance since my last sem rfa got D.
)):

den secondly was we celebrated dad's chinese bday at home with steamboat!
all my favvvv food :D

and of course the fun of cooking it in the pot!
:D

and ahying came over for the steamboat too.
and she brought the clothes i ordered with her on the internet.
from somewhere overseas.

i bought 7.
but onli 3 actually look nice.

got 2 cant wear.
being one cant zip fully at the side.
and another one the cutting is FREAKING small.
)):

the second one is one of my fav.
but even if i slim until left my bones onli also cant wear.
cause the cutting is VERY small.

even ahying said tight. o.o

all in a day.
yap.
(:

as for some other matters.
seems that you had also made a decision huh?

im sorry i had to use such a harsh tone and use such harsh words in our last convo.
but i really think if i dun be straightforward u wont get what i mean.

and we will just continue to beat around the bush.
never getting to the problem.

so since u gave up too.
i guess thats the end.

seriously im really very upset that ive not really got the feeling of being in a relationship.
if relationships is what i thought it was.

that both parties are really really very happy to have each other around.
and that they like each other's company.
and that when things go wrong, the meetup will make one feel better.

many would tell me this is reality.
all that onli happens in dramas and movies.

but look at those.
its just 3 simple things.
WHY CANT IT HAPPEN?

well im someone who believes fairytales do happen in life.
i will not give up that belief.

at least..

not yet.

since uve decided.
i guess its really over.

i dun know why.
but i do miss u.

i am now.

Y6:58 AM

Saturday, August 08, 2009

8Aug09
12:22am

wanted to come and blog since this afternoon.

but now that im here,
i forgot what was it i wanna blog about.

haha.

but anyways.
I GOT MY NEW PHONE!
((:

samsung preston.
light, touchscreen, style.
HAHA.

i likeeeee.

and best of all, its free! :P

yays!!!
hahahahahah.

okay after one day already my excitement still havent cease.
HAHA.

cause tml i dun think i will have time to do work.
i have to do my audit proj now.
)):

like at least finish my part.
(:

can do it one!:D

anyways.

i thought i should say this.

I LOVE NAPPING WHEN I WANNA NAP.
x)

i did just now at 6+pm.
HAHAHA.

dun normally get to do that,
cause i seldom got the time to slow down and sit down for the whole day already.

and well i slacked away the whole day.
LOL.

:x

oh yah!
i thought of what i wanted to blog already!

hahaha.

i got my attachment letter already.
mine will start in sep.

its at baxter's healthcare S & A.
(:

actually,
im quite upset.

like i dun feel that great.

cause alot of my friends went to places like banks.
OCBC, citibanks and etc.

they are going to places like cityhall maybe?

and here im stuck at some place in between woodlands and kranji.
hmmm. ):

i have only myself to blame.
i mean,
i m not some topppp student in sch.

naturally i dun get to the BIGG companies.

oh wells.

actually this baxter healthcare should be quite big too.
think its from US?

and they do meaningful stuff!
they make devices and give therapies for ppl with cancer and kidney failure i think.

and last but not least,
the best part is that im going there with serlee! :DDD

we got attached to the same company.
hehe.

now im all excited on what job am i gonna do there.
audit?
or accounts?

(:

for now,
its to clear audit.
and to clear all my exams!
so i can go to attachment.
(:

jiayou peeps!(:

and lastly..
i really think..
we are both helping each other to recover from the wounds made.

im really happy and its really heartwarming that things are going this way.

to others it might be wrong...

but i think only ourselves can heal each other from the pain. (:

im not predicting what will happen or hoping for anything..
but remember,
one day when you think you dont wanna try anymore...
tell me.

and remember i'll still be there.
(:

Y9:10 AM

Thursday, August 06, 2009

6Aug09
2.32am

just thought i should come and blog awhile before i go to bed.

had a wonderful night with ta03s and ta01s:D

went orchard after our lesson at 3.
from the journey till the journey home.

fun and laughter!
hahaha.

watched G.I.Joe.
x)

really liked it alot.
damn nice.
hahahaha.

and we camwhored alot today!!
hahahahahaha.

the girls cant stop talking pictures.
*tsk tsk*

:P

and we ate at billy bombers.
somewhere ive never went to eat before.

honey chicken something for everyone.
yummmy.
:D

just so fun with all of them that we all didnt wanna go home :X
so came home late.
and had to do claw stuff till midnight again.

hahaha.
:X

but now can sleep already ((:

and im so happy about something i have to come and blog about it.

well u see.
ive been saying i want a table in my bedroom so i can do my homework.

and when i came home just now,
i saw a white table in the living room!
AHAHA.

my parents bought it for me((:

but they had already went to bed when i came back.

just thought it was really so sweet of them :D

and last but not least.
HAPPY BDAY SHING!((:

past 12 its ur bday already :D

tml's gonna be a long long day.
T.T

so goodnight people!
:D:D:D

Y11:21 AM

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

5Aug09
12.54am

im so confused about so many things.

i wish i know exactly how you feel.

are you sure that you wanna go through all these?

i mean..
do you think im worth it?

im not some PRETTY or SEXY babe.
i dun know..

and i wonder if the things that you do are gonna be any different.

i wonder if i will feel otherwise.
its very hard im warning you.

just thought i should tell you this.
no matter what the ending is.

as long as both of us are happy,
i'll be very contented already.

yap.

i need to go do my audit proj stuff now.
night everyone((:

Y9:43 AM

Sunday, August 02, 2009

2Aug09
1.22am

yeah thought i should come blog.
i dun wish to bother my friends too much by talking to them too much..

i can only say.
it hurts.
its heartaching.

but its something that has to be done.....

but ive tried my best..
i should be proud of myself..

im really touched that you could still go all out to make me feel better.
im really really touched.

forgive me for not going on with you into the future.

as much as i want to protect you and be there for you whenever you are sad,
and make you happy..

but i got to do this.
for myself...

im sorry.

its really hard to let go on my side too.
but its for my own good.
and maybe its for yours too.....

maybe you will find a better girl than me..

please dont forget what i said.
on smiling more...
on taking care of yourself more...

ive took up alot of courage to make this decision.
and alot of time too.

thank you for helping me choose.
thank you for making me feel better.

i really really really appreciate your effort to do that.

or i might be killing myself already.

i got a feeling all this will affect my studies.
and my exams are just 2weeks away...
im so so so worried.

i still can remember u picked me up when i was like in the mud.
i started studying and leading a new life after i went together with you..

i will never forget all the memories we had together..

and i'll definitely miss you...

thanks for everything..
and sorry for my selfishness....

always part of my heart...

goodnight.
sweetdreams.
and take care of yourself without me...

night..

Y10:10 AM