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Saturday, July 18, 2009

18july09
4.11pm

hary potter had started airing in theatres.
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i hadnt eat kfc bandito yet.
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Friday, July 17, 2009

17July09
1.41am

tired but dun feel like going to sleep.

i hanging halfway in the air.
with onli one feet on the ground.

not balanced.
not calm.
not comfortable.

it feels like ive woken up from a dream.
and nothing had actually happened.
nothing took place.

it was all an imagination.
all a dream.

i wouldnt say its a nightmare.
cause i didnt regret at all.

from the day the dream started.
even up till now.

but..
i had to wake myself up from the dream.

i did.
and now i dun know if its really good or bad.

i hate making decisions.
because i always get all lost and dun know what to do.
but most things in life has to be decided and onli one choice can be taken.

hate that.

and i hate myself for always not being determined.
and always so softhearted.

cause the one who gets hurt is always the weaker one.):

but the many factors and the things that sparked the whole thing off..
i cant just ignore them.

ive been constantly under this situation.
for more than half a year now..

im proud of myself.
to have took it up and tried my very best.

here's a song for now.
他要我他不爱我 - 任贤齐

他没有伤我，只是我自己太软弱。

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whats gonna happen now?
it already ended?

ps. u will always find me here to help when u're in times of need.

im getting tired.
probably its the time to sleep..

thanks for the friends(:
everyone of u(:
just nice to get me through all of these.

or at least keep my minds off.
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and i will hold her through the darkest nights..
holding her warm and tight~

- song composed by a songwriter invited to scc last wed, he sang this when his wife came walking in the aisle.(:

love should be beautiful.(:
i'll always believe in that.

Y10:29 AM

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

8July09
11:58pm

i feel so relieved now.
i feel so happy.

i feel really free.

and it's all thanks to my friends who gave me a second chance to choose(:

on my way back home tonight..
i realised tonight,
i've smiled and laughed,
and felt so calm,
since alot of months ago.

it felt like ive not laughed truly happily for very long now.

im just not cut out for stress i guess.

im really happy to have joined scc.
and known so many good friends.
as well as have fun every wednesday night.
to laugh and to hang out.

thanks all of you who helped me get through.

and i realise i perform well when i dun hold responsibility.

maybe it means i hasnt grown up.
or it might just mean..
im better at supporting people than to lead.
(:

and shinru!!
welcome back to spore!!
REALLY LOVEEEEEEEE THE PRESENTS:D

you very good at choosing present eh!
everybody so happy :D

and jenny!
thanks for teaching me guitar(:

thanks to cynthia and prisy too.
although late by one week.
thanks for teaching me keyboard. :D

like finally.
cause ive always wanted to play something.
but i never get to know how.
(:

im so gonna do my schoolwork well.
so many things.
so little time.
but im so determined to get good results.
(:

omg.
channel5 playing michael jackson's memorial.
=/

RIP michael jackson.

im gonna go bath and do tax stuff already....
so night night everyone(:

sweeet dreamsss(:

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