today wasnt a very good day i guess. and currently im still feeling a little heat. cause i was kinda upset and angry and all the unpleasant feelings all gathered into one.
dearieee i was sooooo upset that we had to cut off from our convo. of course i understand your situation. i just..... hate the fact that it has to be like that.
we cant even talk for more than 20mins a day.
and now that you're caught for using the phone, you can only book out on sat ):
im just feeling better about the fact that they didnt confiscate your phone.
or else it would be torturous for the next few days):
soo yeah. after one whole day of frustration and dragging my feet to continue working, my dearie had to go cause officer came in and caught him using phone after lights out ):
and i thought that would be the end of my lousy day.
but thats not all.
my parents quarrelled. and they seldom do so. cause they seldom communicate anyway.
its all because of money ): and believe me,
it wasnt pretty to be sitting on the floor beside them and watching them shout at each other. they even cursed and swear.
i just hope things would get better or something. ):
and i hate my dad's attitude. we are trying to tell him how's the situation like so that we can understand the whole family situation and all his FUCKING negative thinking always have to come in.
and then he will start acting. ACTING PITIFUL. ACTING COOL. ACTING FIERCE. ACTING in whatever he can act in ):
I SERIOUSLY hate ppl, esp close ones, to hide from each other how we feeel.
i just feeel hes trying to take it in and that hes trying hard. he doesnt wanna bother us.
BUT HIS ATTITUDE IS CAUSING OUR BOTHER. FUCK.
i hate ppl who dont get that point. and these are the ppl i hate the most other than hypocrites.
people whom are like sarcastic and start stabbing themselves to make people pity them cause they feel guilty for "ill-treating" them.
when sometimes we didnt even ill treat them!
FUCKKKKK.
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
dearie. i wished you could have been there for me or something...
but i know its impossible. cause.
you're not here. ):
and we cant help it.
i wish you understand how i feeel and feels about the same. the same sadness.
so that i know you mind this situation now alot too, just like me.
and i really wish, you understand and feel happy about the things that i tell you every now and then.
although you said its because you've got no time to reply.
i understand. so if you really understand and they actually sound lovely to you, im happy.
but i need to know. so that my thoughts wont go negative too ):
i still dont own alot of confidence in myself.
goodnight everyoneee. tired sia. tml is another f*** work day. ):
Y9:11 AM
skyward
your love gives me wings.
her
simple.
loving.
cheerful.
(:
destined
to wait for the day when i will give you everything in this world.
