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Friday, July 17, 2009

17July09
1.41am

tired but dun feel like going to sleep.

i hanging halfway in the air.
with onli one feet on the ground.

not balanced.
not calm.
not comfortable.

it feels like ive woken up from a dream.
and nothing had actually happened.
nothing took place.

it was all an imagination.
all a dream.

i wouldnt say its a nightmare.
cause i didnt regret at all.

from the day the dream started.
even up till now.

but..
i had to wake myself up from the dream.

i did.
and now i dun know if its really good or bad.

i hate making decisions.
because i always get all lost and dun know what to do.
but most things in life has to be decided and onli one choice can be taken.

hate that.

and i hate myself for always not being determined.
and always so softhearted.

cause the one who gets hurt is always the weaker one.):

but the many factors and the things that sparked the whole thing off..
i cant just ignore them.

ive been constantly under this situation.
for more than half a year now..

im proud of myself.
to have took it up and tried my very best.

here's a song for now.
他要我他不爱我 - 任贤齐

他没有伤我，只是我自己太软弱。

):
whats gonna happen now?
it already ended?

ps. u will always find me here to help when u're in times of need.

im getting tired.
probably its the time to sleep..

thanks for the friends(:
everyone of u(:
just nice to get me through all of these.

or at least keep my minds off.
):

and i will hold her through the darkest nights..
holding her warm and tight~

- song composed by a songwriter invited to scc last wed, he sang this when his wife came walking in the aisle.(:

love should be beautiful.(:
i'll always believe in that.

Y10:29 AM