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Sunday, November 30, 2008

30Nov2008
12:10am

i screwed everything up.

sorry girls.

projects sucks.

i couldnt believe i still cant adapt to poly life.

i am so screwing things up.

the changes in my life.
made me got off track of my life.

i wasnt like this before.
but now, i've become like this.

i know i can make it back.
i just hope i dun have to take too long.
cause time doesnt wait for me.

and my friends wont either.
=/

trust me one last time girls.
i wont disappoint u girls again.

thanks for forgiving me so many times in the past.

i've realised back my correct route.
im stepping on it again.
im gonna start running.

run with me(:

Y8:05 AM

Saturday, November 29, 2008

29Nov2008
12:12am

new chapter.

and im feeling a little confused.

but anyways, its making my mood go up and down.

is this gonna be a happy ending?

is he the one i've been waiting for?

well seriously.
i hope he is.

and i hope it would be a happy ending (:

got friends told me,
doesnt really matter what he thinks,
just treasure the moments together.

but i want to know how he feel!
it's important.
=/

but of course,
i treasure our time together (:

my common tests are coming.
GG.

am doing my audit elearning..
den gonna go sleep after.
HOPE ITS NOT GONNA TAKE TOO LONG.

im sleepy. T.T

tml gonna start studying for my tests already!
YEAH GO GO GO!

:DD

i believe i'll manage to find back my interest in studying.
(:

btw yesterday was another mark in my life.
i broke the "rules" once again.
didnt feel very bad,
:x

but i guess i have to be like that to get changes huh?

if you want something u never had, do something u've never done(:

Y8:07 AM

Saturday, November 15, 2008

15Nov08
5:52pm

hahahas.
last post was oct12.

no wonder so mani ppl are complaining :X

and yeah i realise its stuck at FIRST DAY of school. LOL.
thank you gary.
hahhas.

hmmm.
one month passed..
both new and old things came to me.

hahahas.

past haunt me~~~~
T.T
but im feeling better now.
lol.
phew~~

wont wanna stay sad over somethings right?
cant be sad forever~~
LOL.
lalalalas~

err..
den new people.
new stuff.

oh and i grew more addicted to SCC!
SONG COMPOSING CLUB rocks!
x)

hhahhahas.

now i go KAP with them after activity every week.
LOL.

and hmmm..
im very tired recently.
wonder why.

keep dozing off in class.
=/

its either im really tired,
or i got some sleepy illness.
LOL.
or maybe my brain just turns off automatically when im doing things i have no interest in.
LIKE STUDYING.
lol!

well if thats the case,
i'll have to tune my brain back to like studying.
my modules this sem is kinda interesting :D

but im still dozing off.
-.-

lol.

den hmmmm.
my 18th bday passed!
hahas.

nope i didnt reach acceptable weight.
LOL.
*sad*

hahas.
well i kinda heck already.
lost motivation =/

i'll find it back soon.
:D

celebrated with relatives and cousins on 11thnov.
went to restaurant eat buffet dinner.
LOL.
not very yummy.
but yap~
kinda nice, the atmosphere. :D

den went SCC on wed 12thnov.
they celebrated for me!
hahas.
and yes,
you guys managed to surprise me!
didnt expect to have the HUGE piglet and the bouquet. :D
and the cake was yummy.

hahahas.
everything was about pig.
LOL.
great choice of cake deco gary.

hmmm.
my fav part of the whole celebration is all of em sing the HAPPY BDAY SONG:D
the feeling is really nice:D

well i think not alot of pics were taken ):

*sad**

hahahas.
but having some is better than dont have.
thanks to shin ru(:

and da gary!!
u play the song so random!!
shinru didnt manage to record down!!!
awwwww~~~

YI HAN you know?
that song so nice.

next yr play again luhs :D

hees.

den 13thnov.
actual day NO CAKE. -.-
lol.
there goes my 3wishes.
hahahahas.

cause one cake got 3 wishes!!
hahaas.
*sad**

but on that day,
i got a box of TREASURE from my beloved classmates:D
thanks loads!

and a beautiful necklace from sister, queen and valerie!
(:

love em all :D

den met up with my other friends.
skipped lecture.
HEHE.
:X

siangsiang brought me go watch MADAGASCAR2!
hahahahaas.
it releases on my bday :D

its so cute and funny!
hehe.
just like me!
LOL!

:X

pictures later kays :D

well i realise quite alot of things recently.
and im not feeling too good abt them.

a friend told me that.
what i imagined, what i yearned for.
doesnt exist .

the reality world is different from what i expected.
boys and girls dont like each other for just who they are.
just for their smile.
or just for their personality.
or for their impression on their life.

it takes more.

and that, the feelings for each other will fade.
and they are no longer ENOUGH for each other.
or something like that.

i dun know.
but i believe i'll find my right one who thinks otherwise.
who loves me for who i am (:

i have faith not everybody onli cares abt appearance.
i have faith there are love which lasts a lifetime.(:

and i hope i can find mine. :D
cause FAT CAN FIND TRUE LOVE!
:D

and hmmm im rather sad about these particular replies from someone.
but i guess they are all true.

but well.
if he doesnt know how to appreciate me,
i'm sure there are ppl who will (:

and i tell you.
my future partner WILL BE THE LUCKIEST GUY ON EARTH.
:X
hehe.

i will assure that. :D

hmmm~~
i guess thats abt it~~
what happened recently and stuff.

THANKS EVERYBODY for celebrating for me and buying me presents! :D
love you guys. (:
*hug*

now for pictures~~~ :D

Y1:46 AM