Saturday, May 17, 2008
18 may 08
1:36 Am
damn upset now. MOODY.
feeling violent.
FK FK FK FK!!!!
=X
okay good things first.
today's daryl's bday!!
TUZHU~~
lol.
went to his house for his bday party.
=]]
at first was quite siansss.
cause got nth to do..
i dont know piano. dont know guitar. dont know the games.
den den buffet started.
eat~~ eat~~
den chitchat with this little girl and her mummy.
Joey! :D
her mum very friendly. :DD
den cut cake~!
HAPPY BDAY DARYL!
soon, they started playing the guitar and singing.
and i dont know when started to be the AV crew.
take videos of their performance.
LOL.
concert!!
hahahas.
and it was like 1 hr plus??
LOL.
got chinese got english songs~
said 9 want go home..
den soon it was 9.32..
den it was 10.25...
LOL!
in the end i left at 11 i think.
took a pic with little joey before i left!!
:D
hehe.
sweet isnt her?
like a small princess.
=]
so thats about all for daryl's 18th bday party!
=]
den had to go home alone.
the way down and out to the main road.
got abit pa pa.
called someone.
he didnt pick up.
=/
managed to go all the way.
den sms-ed him.
to ask him why he didnt pick up.
HE REPLIED.
SO HE WAS WITH HIS PHONE.
=/
busy or didnt hear?
BUSY.
=/
i know i am in no position to be angry or what. he's just my friend. but i am upset. VERY UPSET. i dont know why. but what i feel is, he's not interested in talking to me, to keep in contact with me. EVEN IF I DONT TALK TO HIM EVER AGAIN, HE WOULDNT MIND ANYMORE! because. even if you're busy. you see ur friend's no. on ur phone. would u not pick it up? normal behaviour would be to pick up and say sorry i'm busy. and if you're concerned abt me... you'll try to listen to what i have to say. i know its lame to say i am scared of ghosts and i want u to accompany me on the phone. BUT I AM SCARED WHAT! what can i do?!! i will call u because you're the one i wanna call when i am scared! because i think it will calm me! not everyone has the same effect my dear!!! ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=/
it really hurts me that you've changed.
I HATE TIME! it makes everyone change. WHY DO EVERYONE HAVE TO CHANGE?! =[
why cant good friends stay good forever.
why cant you treat a person the same way you do forever???
i think i like you.
i realised it ever since you changed.
it all started after the BAOC.
now what bothers me is.
did you ever like me?
did you like me when you treated me so good for the last few mths?
or you're just so friendly with every girl?
I HATE IT WHEN YOU JUST TELL ME THE WORD 'BUSY'.
its nt just because ur busy.
its because you've lost interest in me or something.
its because you dont care no more.
its a type of natural reaction.
you cant really see it unless you sit down and think abt it in depth.
but aiya i dont know how to say lahs.
this morning i was thinking.
i'll wait till this sem ends.
if you choose the same class as us again, i'll confess my feelings to you.
if you choose to change other class and be with HER, i'll give you up.
if you choose to be in the same class as us, but pull her in, i'll see how u treat me and her and choose to confess or give you up.
but now..
i think i should stop being a nuisance.
and dont try to be close to you anymore.
i think i should give up on you NOW.
today.
this moment.
=/
cause you dont feel the same way as me.
and you're hurting me ALOT.
i dont wanna cry over you again.
its the 2nd time today.
for the past few weeks.
i tried to disturb you..
sms you..
its just because i wanna be close to you.
but you were always so cold.
6 weeks since the change.
i miss the time when we chat everyday.
i miss the time when you will come looking for me suddenly.
i miss the time when we will even sms each other when i'm overseas.
i miss the time when you will talk to me when i come to you with lalalas.
BUT U CHANGED.
why must you change??
i promised myself.
i shall nt disturb u anymore.
i will never call u again.
i will nt come to u when i'm scared.
when i'm lost.
when i need someone.
NEVER EVER.
Y10:29 AM
